I feel like poop, guys. Why does it seem that the flight to somewhere is always better than the flight back?

Take it black

(This is a reference to a movie in case you don’t get it…)

I feel like my head is waterlogged and I’m ready to pass out at any moment but first let me tell you about my first experience with my internship.

So the 27th was my first day at the store, then they had me flying out to Charlotte, NC. (Airlines are some of the biggest dip-shizz I’ve ever seen with their whole liquids restrictions. REALLY, a girl with long, CURLY hair like mine requires many a product to maintain.)

Long hair

Me in Charlotte!

There was two other girls that flew with me, and as well as my district manager. Let me say, he absolutely scares the hell out of me. His personality, his appearance, his voice, everything about him makes me feel like if he ever yelled at me, I would break down then and there–probably run away, never to be seen again.


The girls were okay, except for one… I took some pretty mean snap chats of her, but because she’s a fellow student I wont post them. :\ Though I really wish I could…

not even sorry

Anyway, the trip was almost a waste of time. I barely had a free moment to myself, and they had us on the evening flight out the next day. I’m still excited to be with the company, but this headache from going-going-going better be worth the $14.50/hour pay, let me tell ya.

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Oh and I still feel like my heart is going to die in chest, so I have that going for me. Yay. Good night everyone! SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

Quote of the Day:

Worth it


I want to put a strain of obscenities right here.

So it’s Sunday morning and I’m try not to sob like a little bitch.


My ex. Well… last time I posted, we were going to have a date night. I could tell he wasn’t all there during the date, though, and I was pretty pissed about it. Turns out, he was preparing to drop a huge bomb on me.

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See, he was going to leave to work in Houston, TX. Two weeks on, two weeks off. We were hoping to use that two weeks off to rebuild our relationship. Well apparently Thursday, on his way to Louisville to see me, he got a call from his boss’ boss. He is being relocated, fully to Reno, Nevada… not on rotation. What does that mean? That means everything we had been talking about this semester was now up the creek with out a paddle.

Eat Pray Love gif

It may have been the way he approached it, but to me, this was probably some of the most heart breaking moments with him, that I’ve ever had. Because we are so tired of doing long distance. (We dated for about two years while he was at another University getting his degree.) Right now, he doesn’t want to try to “date”, and while I want to at this moment, I know its not a good idea. He says it can be 3 months, it can be a year, then they’ll relocate him somewhere else. (With the “possibility” it will be on rotation)

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I’m going to miss him like crazy, guys, but even more so–I am so scared. He has been the person I’ve been the closest to for the last three years. I really don’t want to lose him so suddenly. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.Its even more worse because I’m the only one in the situation thats sad about it. How can he be? He’s starting a new adventure, his career. While I’m the debby downer being left behind.

allergic to jerks

I just have to tell myself this is like a blink of an eye. A year, even two, in the span of a lifetime is nothing. Its going to be okay. He and I will still talk. I’ll be crazy busy with my life (classes this year are going to be a B) and maybe at the end of the road, we’ll find a way to make it work. It might be like we’re paying the toll for our future happiness. Get through the hard years, and eventually it’ll get easier?

There, there

Sorry this ones a little longer/more depressing. I’ll try and find the spunk to make the next one crack you all up. Thank you for letting me open up to you about this, and I think it helped to see it in front of me. Now I’m either going to sleep my sorrows away, or watch Game of Thrones. I haven’t quite decided.


Try to have a good day everyone!

Quote of the Day:

Love it

(I’ll try and bare this in mind for a while.)